finding refuge

just when i thought everything's ok.. .. .. it wasn't at all. i'm trying to enclose myself to my ideals, but reality really bites before i even sink into my dreamland, breaking the stillness of my slumber. i don't hate the fact that i'm being awakened to the hard cold truth.. but gimme a break! not everybody can tolerate such pressure, such depression, such pain all his life. every once in a while, people need to be isolated from all those, too, for him to renew himself, to regain his strength.

i just wish that i could run away... way too far.. where no one can reach me, no one can find me, no one can do anything to me... but only Him.

i guess, what i'm trying to say is ...

i think, what i'm feeling right now is ...

i should be leaving it up to you to understand