in pain

mixed emotions.. that's how everybody puts it ... and that's what i'm feeling right now. and so does he...

but mine's worse.. sad to say.. cause some people are sooo damn inconsiderate!! they know it's not going to be easy for me.. but what the... ??

i'm trying sooo hard to keep my cool.. to keep myself from breaking down.. but nothing helps. they will never understand how hard it would be.. .. no, they won't

*sigh*

i will miss him..

........... . . .. .. this, too, shall soon pass.. hopefully :'(